[Intro]
I keep my breath tight, halfway between sleeping and awake
A silent ache that won’t quite break
[Verse 1]
Two years gone, I know more than I say, I see the ghosts in the feed
Messages, faces, all the echoes of a love I still try to shield
I tell myself to rise, but laughter rings out like a choked relief
In the back of my tongue your name trembles, begging to believe
[Chorus]
I’m trying, I’m trying, to show up for what this is
Unbearable, unconditional, a love that still insists
But I’m numb to the motion, I’m slow to participate
Between miracles and mess, I’m choosing to wait
[Verse 2]
EmilY in the margins, a blur of help and hurt and doubt
I forgive, I love, I bend, but you can’t stay where I’m breaking out
Two years of knowing, yet not acting, two lives breathing in one town
I’m a patient storm, a miracle spinning but I won’t drown
[Chorus]
I’m trying, I’m trying, to show up for what this is
Unbearable, unconditional, a love that still insists
But I’m numb to the motion, I’m slow to participate
Between miracles and mess, I’m choosing to wait
[Bridge]
Is this me trying, or just being, in the quiet between
Where hope and fear collide, where I’m learning to be seen
[Chorus]
I’m trying, I’m trying, to show up for what this is
Unbearable, unconditional, a love that still insists
But I’m numb to the motion, I’m slow to participate
Between miracles and mess, I’m choosing to wait
[Outro]
One in a zillion chances, I’m still here, learning to take the first step
I am
