Trying (Midnight Between Us)

[Intro] I keep my breath tight, halfway between sleeping and awake A silent ache that won’t quite break [Verse 1] Two years gone, I know more than I say, I see the ghosts in the feed Messages, faces, all the echoes of a love I still try to shield I tell myself to rise, but laughter rings out like a choked relief In the back of my tongue your name trembles, begging to believe [Chorus] I’m trying, I’m trying, to show up for what this is Unbearable, unconditional, a love that still insists But I’m numb to the motion, I’m slow to participate Between miracles and mess, I’m choosing to wait [Verse 2] EmilY in the margins, a blur of help and hurt and doubt I forgive, I love, I bend, but you can’t stay where I’m breaking out Two years of knowing, yet not acting, two lives breathing in one town I’m a patient storm, a miracle spinning but I won’t drown [Chorus] I’m trying, I’m trying, to show up for what this is Unbearable, unconditional, a love that still insists But I’m numb to the motion, I’m slow to participate Between miracles and mess, I’m choosing to wait [Bridge] Is this me trying, or just being, in the quiet between Where hope and fear collide, where I’m learning to be seen [Chorus] I’m trying, I’m trying, to show up for what this is Unbearable, unconditional, a love that still insists But I’m numb to the motion, I’m slow to participate Between miracles and mess, I’m choosing to wait [Outro] One in a zillion chances, I’m still here, learning to take the first step I am