[Verse 1]*
She lies
She hides
She’s a devil in disguise
That’s what they say in doorways
When my name comes up after wine
Be careful
Her words are twisting
Cruel enough to sting
And I won’t lie—I know my mouth
Can make a miracle collapse
*[Verse 2]*
Her actions are deceiving
Only destruction she brings
I’ve entered rooms and moved the air wrong
Watched my mother’s face fold in
I can’t make my parents proud
My anger, it’s loud
It throws itself at walls I built
Then blames the wallpaper
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Be aware
Don’t trust her
Go away
*[Verse 3]*
Let her image blur
In the corner of your minds
That part’s easy-I blur myself
In shop windows, in yearbook margins
Her made-up stories can leave you feeling blind
I rehearse them before bed
Not to fool anyone now
To see if I still believe the version
That kept me safe at fifteen
*[Verse 4]*
But would you take the risk
To dive into her dark heart?
I don’t wear it like a medal
I wear it like a coat I can’t return
A perfect blend of effort
A majestic piece of art
The art is how normal I sound
When I’m breaking my own curfew of trust
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She never meant to cause harm
She’s hard on herself
*[Verse 5]*
Trying to please two worlds
One with rules and one with noise
And me in the driveway choosing which set of keys
I regret by midnight
Would you try it once yourself?
Running loyalty like a tab
Smiling with your father’s jokes in your teeth
While your mother’s voice asks are you my daughter tonight
*[Verse 6]*
Yes, she lies
But also regrets her mouth
I write apologies I never send
Because sorry sounds smaller than what I did
Yes, she hides
A frantic effort to prevent
Things from going south
I curate what I reveal
Like a museum of a lighter girl
Who gets to leave before last call
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She’s cruel on herself
She’s her own devil
*[Verse 7]*
Using anything and everything
To test her pain level
Late drives, sharp replies, no sleep
A way to turn guilt into data
If I can name the burn
Maybe I get to keep the wheel this time
But she misses her
