Talking To Myself

Intro (spoken) Sometimes I don’t know if I’m strong… or I just learned how to hide it. Verse 1 I smile for the world, but I’m cracked inside They say “be patient”, I been waiting my whole life Dreams too big for a small place They don’t see the tears, they just see my face They call me weak ’cause I feel too much But pain made me human, not soft as fuck I light it up just to slow my brain Not to run from life, just to fight the rain Mama thinks I’m fine, I tell her I’m cool But nights get loud when the room too quiet Friends disappear when the money low But they reappear when the vision glow Hook Talking to myself in the dark again Asking God “will this pain end?” If I lose my mind, would they understand? Or love me only when I win? Verse 2 I gave my heart to dreams, not people That’s why love feel illegal Every time I trust, I pay a fee Every smile hiding scars in me They judge my smoke, they judge my walk But never ask why I barely talk I’m tired of being strong for everybody Who never stayed when my soul was hurting Lesotho nights, stars know my name I scream my fears but they fall like rain If I make it out, I won’t pretend I survived myself, not my friends Outro (spoken) If nobody ever claps… I still owe this kid inside me a chance.